Christmas Eve

This has been without a doubt the worst year of my life! Losing mom slowly has just been totally exhausting. Yesterday I put Cindy in the boys in the Yukon to head towards Chicago to be with her family for the holidays. I truly wanted some time just to myself to try to re-focus.

Typically my family would join my whole family at my grandmother's home for Christmas Eve. It sounds like the rest of the family will be there, but to be honest, my heart is not in it. I just want to be alone!

I want to spend some time quietly listening to God. I want to get some direction for 2006. I want to get my head back on straight. Truly, I am not sad to be alone. I want it deeply! I have looked forward to this for about a week.

Please keep me in your prayers that I will hear clearly from God during my time alone with Him.