Still Alive

Today I find myself working from my lap in my living room in Watertown, MN. My wife is in Iowa trying to wrap things up there so she can come to be with me permanently in April. I feel like we are separated, but know that this is God's will for us at this time. She has been a great help to Zach and his family these past several weeks. Last night Cindy shared with me that she believes that this time has also been helpful for her to let go and truly want to move north.

I have lots of thoughts and dreams and aspirations as to why I would leave a growing church in Iowa to come to this work in Minnesota. I guess the bottom line is that I have seen what God can do when you walk away from what you feel comfortable with to do something that scares the snot out of you. I have zero desire to jump off of a cliff or wrestle with an alligator. This is different. This is following what you believe that God has instructed to do and following with full faith that He will catch you if you fall.

Church is far different today. No office. No church facility. No staff. No money. I do have God though. I believe that He is more than enough. I am banking my life on that. Next week I should be in an office. We will be meeting at the high school. I do have unpaid staff that work harder than most people who get paid to do the work. I am blessed.

I am pretty nervous about the future. I have a home to sell in Iowa. Money has never been so tight. I am 200 miles from my wife. Leaving Zach in Iowa is really tough. Josh is working 60 hours a week at a new job. Lots of stuff to think about. I must take consolation in that God is in control of everything.

By the way, I was 184 this morning on the bathroom scale!